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今天是室利罗摩克里希纳的周年纪念日——斯瓦米吉生前所见的最后一次。弟子将一首献给室利罗摩克里希纳的祈祷颂词呈交给斯瓦米吉，随即轻轻按摩他的双脚。在开始朗读颂词之前，斯瓦米吉对他说："动作要非常轻柔，因为双脚已变得非常敏感。"
朗读颂词之后，斯瓦米吉说道："写得很好。"
斯瓦米吉的病情日益加重，弟子察觉到这一切，心中隐隐作痛。斯瓦米吉洞察到他内心的感受，说道："你在想什么？这具身体既已生，必将死亡。若我能将我的一些理念灌注到你们心中，我便知道我的降生没有白费。"
弟子：我们这些人，配做您慈悲的对象吗？若您不计我的资质，赐福于我，那我才会认为自己是有福的。
斯瓦米吉：永远记住，离欲（Vairagya）是根本所在。若不初入这一理念，就连梵天（Brahma）与诸天神也没有获得解脱（Mukti）的力量。
弟子：令人深感遗憾的是，尽管几乎每天都从您这里听到这些话，我却仍未能将其实证。
斯瓦米吉：离欲必将到来，只是需要机缘成熟。"时机到来，人自能在内心证得知识。"前世的一些旧日习性（Samskaras）消尽之时，离欲便在心中萌生。
片刻之后，他说道："你为什么要出去看那熙攘的人群呢？现在留在我身边。请尼兰加纳坐在门口，让他今天不要让任何人来打扰我。"
随后，斯瓦米吉与弟子之间展开了以下对话：
斯瓦米吉：我认为，从今以后以一种不同的方式来举办这个周年纪念日，会更好。纪念活动应延续四五天，而非只有一天。第一天，可以研习与诠释经典；第二天，讨论吠陀（Vedas）与吠檀多（Vedanta），解答与之相关的问题；第三天，可以举行问答课。第四天固定为讲演日。最后一天，按照现在的方式举行庆典。这样就像难近母女神祭祀持续四五天那样。当然，若庆典按上述方式举行，除了最后一天，其他几天将只有室利罗摩克里希纳的信徒才能出席。但那无关紧要。大批形形色色的人群，并不意味着室利罗摩克里希纳的教义得到了广泛弘扬。
弟子：先生，这个构想非常美好。下次将按照您的心意来安排。
斯瓦米吉：现在，我的孩子，你们来完成它吧。我已无意再操心这些事了。
弟子：先生，今年来了许多柯尔坦的团队。
听到这些话，斯瓦米吉起身，握住窗户的铁栏，望着聚集的信徒人群。片刻之后，他坐了下来。
斯瓦米吉：你们是室利罗摩克里希纳神圣游戏（Lila）中的演员。此后，不仅是我们的名字，连你们的名字也将被人们所传颂。你们所写的这些颂词，此后将被人们诵读，以获取爱与知识。当知证悟真我（Atman）的知识，是生命的最高目的。若你对那些作为世界导师的阿瓦塔拉（神的化身）怀有虔信（Bhakti），那种知识将随着时间的推移自然在你身上彰显。
弟子：先生，我能达到这样的知识吗？
斯瓦米吉：承蒙室利罗摩克里希纳的加持，你将获得神圣的爱与知识。在世俗生活中，你不会找到太多幸福。
弟子：先生，若您能俯允摧毁我心中的软弱，我才有希望。
斯瓦米吉：何须惧怕！既然你有幸来到这里，你将获得自由及一切。
弟子（满怀恳切地说）：您一定要在今生将我从无明中救度出来，提升我。
斯瓦米吉：说吧，谁能救度任何人呢？上师所能做的，不过是揭去某些遮蔽之幕。当这些幕布被揭去，真我（Atman）便在自身的光辉中显现，有如太阳普照大地。
弟子：那么，为什么经典中会提到恩典呢？
斯瓦米吉：恩典的意思是这样的。证悟了真我（Atman）的人，成为了伟大力量的宝藏。以他为中心，一个有着特定半径的圆圈便形成了，凡是进入这个圆圈之内的人，都会被那位圣者的理念所鼓舞——也就是说，他们被他的理念所折服。如此，无需太多的宗教努力，他们便承袭了那位圣者奇异灵性的成果。若你称此为恩典，你也可以这样叫。
弟子：除此之外，还有没有别的恩典？
斯瓦米吉：有的。当阿瓦塔拉（神的化身）降临时，与他同来的还有那些作为他在世间游戏中的助手而降生的解脱者。唯有阿瓦塔拉才拥有这种力量——在一世之中消散百万灵魂的黑暗，赐予他们解脱（Mukti）。这便是所谓的恩典。你明白了吗？
弟子：是的，先生。但对于那些未能有幸见到他的人，有什么方法呢？
斯瓦米吉：对他们而言，方法是呼唤他。呼唤他，许多人便蒙恩获得了他的示现——能以与我们相同的人形看见他，并获得他的恩典。
弟子：在他离世之后，您曾有过见到室利罗摩克里希纳的幻象吗？
斯瓦米吉：离开身体之后，我曾有一段时间与加济普尔的帕瓦里·巴巴在一起。在他的道场不远处，有一座园林，我就住在那里。人们说那是一座闹鬼的园林，但正如你所知，我自己多少也是个与鬼同类的东西，对鬼魂并不太畏惧。园林里有许多柠檬树，结满了果子。那时我患了腹泻，除了面包之外什么食物都没有。为了增强消化能力，我便大量食用柠檬。与帕瓦里·巴巴相处之后，我非常喜欢他，他也对我产生了深厚的感情。有一天，我想到：我与室利罗摩克里希纳相处了这么多年，却未曾学到任何使这副虚弱身体变得强壮的方法。我听说帕瓦里·巴巴精通哈他瑜伽（Hatha-yoga）。所以我想，要向他学习哈他瑜伽的修炼方法，通过这些方法使身体强壮。你知道，我有一种不屈不挠的决心，无论下定什么决心，我总会去执行。在我打算接受灌顶那天的前夕，我躺在床上沉思，就在那时，我看见室利罗摩克里希纳的形象站在我的右侧，凝神注视着我，神情仿佛无比悲痛。我已将自己奉献给了他，想到自己正在另投一位上师，我深感羞愧，便一直凝视着他。如此或许过了两三个小时，我的口中却始终没有吐出任何话语。然后他突然消失了。那天夜里见到室利罗摩克里希纳，使我的心绪大乱，于是我当天便推迟了向帕瓦里·巴巴受灌顶的念头。一两天后，向帕瓦里·巴巴受灌顶的念头再次在心中升起——当夜又出现了室利罗摩克里希纳的示现，与上次一模一样。如此，接连数夜都出现了室利罗摩克里希纳的幻象之后，我便彻底打消了受灌顶的念头，心想：每次我下定决心时，都会有这样的示现，那么这样做不仅无益，反而有害。
片刻之后，他转向弟子说道："那些曾见过室利罗摩克里希纳的人，真是有福之人。他们的家族与出生，都因此得到了净化。你们所有人都将获得他的示现。你们来到这里这一事实本身，就表明你们离他非常近。没有人真正理解降临人间的室利罗摩克里希纳究竟是谁。即便是他最亲近的信徒，也没有得到真正的线索。只有少数人略得一丝端倪。一切都将在此后慢慢明白。"
谈话就这样进行着，斯瓦米·尼兰加纳南达敲响了房门。弟子起身问道："是谁来了？"斯瓦米·尼兰加纳南达回答说："尼维蒂塔姐妹和几位英国女士。"她们被请进房间，坐在地板上，询问了斯瓦米吉的身体状况。说了几句话后，她们便告退离开了。斯瓦米吉随后对弟子说道："看看她们多有教养！若是孟加拉人，即使见我身体不适，也会让我至少说上半个小时的话。"
此时大约是下午两点半，外面聚集着大批信众。斯瓦米吉洞察到弟子的心思，说道："去四处看看吧——但要快点回来。"
English
Today is the anniversary celebration of Shri Ramakrishna -- the last that Swamiji ever saw. The disciple presented an invocatory hymn on Shri Ramakrishna to Swamiji. He then proceeded to rub Swamiji's feet gently. Before starting to read the poem, Swamiji spoke to him: "Do it very gently as the feet have become very tender."
After reading the poem Swamiji said, "It is well done."
Swamiji's illness had increased so much that the disciple, observing it, felt sore at heart. Understanding his inner feeling, Swamiji said, "What are you thinking? This body is born and it will die. If I have been able to instil a few of my ideas into you all, then I shall know that my birth has not been in vain."
Disciple: Are we fit objects of your mercy? If you bless me, without taking my fitness into consideration, then I will consider myself fortunate.
Swamiji: Always remember that renunciation is the
root idea. Unless one is initiated into this idea, not even Brahma and the World - gods have the power to attain Mukti.
Disciple: It is a matter of deep regret that even hearing this from you almost every day, I have not been able to realise it.
Swamiji: Renunciation must come, but in the fulness of time. "[(Sanskrit)]-- in the fulness of time one attains to knowledge within himself." When the few Samskaras (tendencies) of the previous life are spent, then renunciation sprouts up in the heart.
After some time he said, "Why should you go outside and see the big concourse of people? Stay with me now. And ask Niranjan to sit at the door, so that nobody may disturb me today."
Then the following conversation took place between Swamiji and the disciple:
Swamiji: I think that it will be better if from now the anniversary is celebrated in a different way. The celebration should extend to four or five days instead of one. On the first day, there may be study and interpretation of scriptures; on the second, discussion on the Vedas and the Vedanta and the solution of the problems in connection with them; on the third day, there may be a question class. The fourth day may be fixed for lectures. On the last day, there will be a festival on the present lines. This will be like the Durga Puja extending over four or five days. Of course, if the celebration is on the above lines, none but the devotees of Shri Ramakrishna will be able to attend on the other days except the last. But that does not matter. A large promiscuous crowd of people does not mean a great propagation of the message of Shri Ramakrishna.
Disciple: Sir, it is a beautiful idea. Next time it will be done according to your wishes.
Swamiji: Now, my son, you all will carry them out. I have no more inclination for these things.
Disciple: Sir, this year many Kirtana parties have come.
Hearing these words Swamiji stood up holding the iron bars of the window and looked at the assembled crowd of devotees. After some time he sat down.
Swamiji: You are the actors in the Divine Lila (play) of Shri Ramakrishna. After this, not to speak of ours, people will take your names also. These hymns which you are writing will afterwards be read by people for the acquirement of love and knowledge. Know that the attainment of the knowledge of the Atman is the highest object of life. If you have devotion for the Avataras who are the world - teachers, that knowledge will manifest of itself in time.
Disciple: Sir, shall I attain to such knowledge?
Swamiji: By the blessings of Shri Ramakrishna you shall attain to divine love and knowledge. You will not find much happiness in the worldly life.
Disciple: Sir, if you condescend to destroy the weakness of my mind, then only there is hope for me.
Swamiji: What fear! When you have chanced to come here, you shall be free.
Disciple (with great entreaty): You must save me and lift me from ignorance in this very life.
Swamiji: Say, who can save anybody? The Guru can only take away some covering veils. When these veils are removed, the Atman shines in Its own glory and manifests like the sun.
Disciple: Then why do we find mention of grace in the scriptures?
Swamiji: Grace means this. He who has realised the Atman becomes a storehouse of great power. Making him the centre and with a certain radius a circle is formed, and whoever comes within the circle becomes animated with the ideas of that saint, i.e. they are overwhelmed by his ideas. Thus without much religious striving, they inherit the results of his wonderful spirituality. If you call this grace, you may do so.
Disciple: Is there no other grace than this?
Swamiji: Yes, there is. When the Avatara comes, then with him are born liberated persons as helpers in his world - play. Only Avataras have the power to dispel the darkness of a million souls and give them salvation in one life. This is known as grace. Do you understand?
Disciple: Yes, sir. But what is the way for those who have not been blessed with the sight of him?
Swamiji: The way for them is to call on him. Calling on him, many are blessed with his vision -- can see him in human form just like ours and obtain his grace.
Disciple: Have you ever had a vision of Shri Ramakrishna after his passing away?
Swamiji: After leaving the body, I associated for some time with Pavhari Baba of Ghazipur. There was a garden not far distant from his Ashrama where I lived. People used to say it was a haunted garden, but as you know, I am a sort of demon myself and have not much fear of ghosts. In the garden there were many lemon trees which bore numerous fruits. At that time I was suffering from diarrhoea, and there no food could be had except bread. So, to increase the digestive powers, I used to take plenty of lemons. Mixing with Pavhari Baba, I liked him very much, and he also came to love me deeply. One day I thought that I did not learn any art for making this weak body strong, even though I lived with Shri Ramakrishna for so many years. I had heard that Pavhari Baba knew the science of Hatha - yoga. So I thought I would learn the practices of Hatha - yoga from him, and through them strengthen the body. You know, I have a dogged resolution, and whatever I set my heart on, I always carry out. On the eve of the day on which I was to take initiation, I was lying on a cot thinking; and just then I saw the form of Sri Ramakrishna standing on my right side, looking steadfastly at me, as if very much grieved. I had dedicated myself to him, and at the thought that I was taking another Guru I was much ashamed and kept looking at him. Thus perhaps two or three hours passed, but no words escaped from my mouth. Then he disappeared all on a sudden. My mind became upset seeing Shri Ramakrishna that night, so I postponed the idea of initiation from Pavhari Baba for the day. After a day or two again the idea of initiation from Pavhari Baba arose in the mind -- and again in the night there was the appearance of Shri Ramakrishna as on the previous occasion. Thus when for several nights in succession I had the vision of Shri Ramakrishna, I gave up the idea of initiation altogether, thinking that as every time I resolved on it, I was getting such a vision, then no good but harm would come from it.
After some time he addressed the disciple, saying, "Those who have seen Shri Ramakrishna are really blessed. Their family and birth have become purified by it. All of you will also get his vision. The very fact that you have come here, shows that you are very near to him. Nobody has been able to understand who came on earth as Sri Ramakrishna. Even his own nearest devotees have got no real clue to it. Only some have got a little inkling of it. All will understand it afterwards."
The conversation was thus going on when Swami Niranjanananda knocked at the door. The disciple rose and inquired, "Who has come?" Swami Niranjanananda replied, "Sister Nivedita and some other English ladies." They were admitted into the room, sat on the floor and inquired about the health of Swamiji. After a few more words they went away. Then Swamiji said to the disciple, "See how cultured they are! If they were
Bengalis, they would have made me talk at least for half an hour, even though they found me unwell."
It is about half past two now, and there is a great gathering of people outside. Understanding the disciple's mind, Swamiji said, "Just go and have a look round -- but come back soon."
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